I Wish You Pain

I'll be very vague here, but it will all make sense in the end. And this post is not one of anger, though to some it could read like it. It is a form of meditation and reflection about the self and the broader interactions with people. Most importantly, it is about service to self and others and hopefully to become Better not bitter.

You will meet people who will lie to you. They'll manipulate you into doing things. Morally correct (or not), but favorable to them first. At times, they will make you believe you are privileged and that you should be grateful. In other times, they'll tell you to give up on some or all of, your rights to please them and their loved ones. As if you were not born but made, not from flesh, but mesh.

They will also simulate power. Or mirror it to change your perception. But deep down, they need you more than you need them. But you, too, are too blind to spot it. Or too emotionally involved to react to their manipulation. Or simply too naive to cognize

They have a goal, and you have yours(or at least should have), though it may seem your collective goals converge to make one. But do they?

You perhaps need to stand for yourself in those moments more than any other. Otherwise, you will be filled with resentment later. The moment you realize the scam. And you will realize it, because you would have lived, experienced, and seen beyond the moments you were told you were the favored.

I am a big fan of justice. Justice toward others, but equally important, justice toward oneself.

When you are wronged, seek justice. Most often, not always, it should be rendered by others on your behalf. That’s because you are rarely the best judge of your own case. What you will reach for is vengeance, and vengeance is not justice. Vengeance is you becoming the very thing you sought revenge against.

Still, in a few circumstances, you can render yourself justice without falling into vengeance, and in those cases, the injustice is not serious. Someone insults you; a version of justice could be, but is not confined to, insulting back. I recommend not insulting back. That too is justice, because you have not allowed someone's venom to reach you. You have not let someone trigger an internal conflict in you. You get the point.

Back to the privilege of justice.

To those who believe you are the one receiving a favor, you become invisible, easy to dismiss, and in that dismissal you truly become privileged: they hold their moral high ground and their condescending view of you, and they see nothing coming. Shatter that.

Let the internal pain of humiliation be your fuel. And true justice is being in a position to be vengeful and never avenge. I wish you pain.